It’s Almost 2025…
I took a break from writing and i’ve missed it. There seems to be something organic and natural about writing (typing) instead of talking into a camera. It’s disarming and relaxing and certainly a habit I want to carry into 2025.
That being said, it’s almost 2025 and at the time of writing this, I find myself not entirely excited to be leaving 2024. Normally everyone is hyped about starting a new year and talking about it as if it’s this grand restart.
Personally I dont care to start a new year on the basis that I get to start all over because life has never worked out like that for me. What I am struggling with in 2024 doesn’t just disappear and what I am celebrating in 2024 doesn’t just cease to exist. In a way I am thankful for this. Life moves on and I get to either pick up new habits at the beginning, middle or end of the year or let go of baggage whenever I want.
This year wasn’t easy for a lot of reasons and going into the new year, sure I am both nervous and excited to see if there are any repeats of the good and the bad but I get to carry the lessons I have learned with me and keep fighting for wisdom on how to live better. It’s sorta like compounding interesting instead of a game over and restart kind of thing.
I dont think life would be any better if we all collectively forgot our experiences, wins and losses only to restart every year.
So what am I getting at?
I am not excited about 2025. There is too much uncertainty.
I am comfortable with 2024 because I’ve been here before. I haven’t left yet. It’s been very hard and heartbreaking many days but ive learned to live with it. I dont want to live with any new heartbreak or pain next year. I am still hopeful though.
This year I have completely abandoned the pursuit of happiness since that lets you down every time and it’s too exhausting and fleeting. Hope seems more permanent and firm. Hope is hard to hang on because it’s beyond me and sometimes not too clear, but its more lasting than happiness. Hope is more beautiful. I guess it also depends on where hope is found but we can leave that for another blog post coming soon.
2025 is 3 days away…